Tuesday, July 15, 2008

伪装

这几天有在想,到底自己是个怎样的人?

朋友都在说我,怎么我的衣服不是黑就是白,不闷吗?我的衣橱里有五颜六色的衣,甚至是同款衣的好几个颜色都有。但随手拿起的颜色好像都不怎么跟我相称,黑和白就解决了我的烦恼。

对,我还是喜欢黑色的,觉得黑色总是能将一切都衬托得很好。还是,偏爱黑色是我对安全感的诠释?

昨天肥婆跟我说了一些话,说到我心坎里去了,我又哭了。
“If you're still hahahahah after a supposedly hearbreaking event, means that you're trying too hard on it.You don't have to make yourself being fine.Wounds take time to heal,and you take time to heal too. PLUS, you shouldn't do that in front of me.”

哭泣,不是因为想起不开心的事;
而是,拥有个能看透我心事的朋友。

“我们曾经伪装矜持,面对快要到来的爱情。我们曾经伪装坚强,在爱情被截肢的时候。我们曾经伪装痛恨他人,以转移痛恨自己的借口。我们曾经伪装冷静,当面对说谎的人。”

那一晚我在想着:我很好,我将会变得更好。我让自己变得忙碌,让自己的生活变得多姿多彩,让自己变得更快乐--但我的改变是为了什么呢?给他看?给担心我的朋友看?还是给自己看?连我自己都犹豫了。

“女人,喜欢伪装什么都好,只要不伪装快乐。”


PS:Thanks steph ....:)

4 comments:

stephie said...

love u gal...almost cry reading this post...

muackz!

shengnan said...

almost?!
I cried bacause of you then u said u ALMOST cry only?!
haiz...sam tam lar...

Jade_PY said...

haiz...after reading this post..i think im the worst friend u ever had ba...i do not know how to comfort u..do not know how to make u feel better...but im happy tht u were felt better now...love u...hehe..

shengnan said...

you know how important you are to me,never said those stupid things again k?it's good enough for being with me always...and thanks for coming for me today,really :)